why doesn't my heart tell me to stop?
why can't i just be free
and let go
of what I would say is insecurity?
Something in me keeps on
like a ticking time bomb
ready to explode
the progress I have made.
I can't stop the devastation it causes
within my soul.
I retrace the lines of my past
and tangle with disaster.
The balance I'm walking on is weak
and may fall away at any moment
I cannot rely on this
I cannot stay within the boundaries
I don't know how.
If only I could listen to the truth I speak
If only I could listen to my whispering heart
"stop this wreckage" it says
"stop this madness ruining your life"
I need to give up this chase.
the need to free my old self from bondage.
I need to accept, I am what I am.
I live in this moment,
and not in the ones I try to re-ignite.
I am of this time,
not of the times I once adored.
I need to love this moment
and not loathe what it takes me from.
I need to find the beauty in the letdown,
the freedom in the mundane
and the satisfaction in the here and now.Who I am right now is enough.
and that is enough for me!
