In ruins

you have ruined me...
you let loose your powerful hurricane
and the awesome force
knocked down and broke mysoul
how will I ever recover
how will I ever be whole?

my soul is left in ruins
running, looking in all the wrong directions,
bruised and broken
afraid to be alone
dusty and worn,
like the dessert, dried up!

can this city, the metropolis inside, flurish
without your sweet consistancy
without your liquid poision
in my soul, penetrating my veins?

I am lost, in this desolate place without you
 but in the haze I can barely see the light

Dear You,

twirling white dress
spinning in the wind
flowing brown hair
flying in my face
I see you there
looking at me
seeing my heart
out on my sleve.

You look deeply into me
and find your soul matches mine
you are so enlightened
you make me your mission to win

as I get older,
my intentions change
I no longer need you
to help me stay alive
I no longer need you
to see the beauty on the inside
but crave you to see my outside
that is hungry and alone

you turn away
afraid to go astray.

my heart it falls from me like glass
a broken mirror shattered into pieces before you
graciously, you see the need to free me
and you let me go.
HOW COULD YOU LET ME GO??

But now I see it, in the slow raindrops....
when my mind has cleared and my heart has stopped.
Love is about sacrifice, and about giving away in order to grow.
You loved me, so you did what was best for me, and you set me free.
to discover that I needed to be free in order to exhale
trapped by my pride, and inflated expectations.

your love freed me, and though I know you will never see this I am so thankful that you were in my life for the season that you were. You inspired me to look at life as a gift, and that I am worth more than diamonds. I am valued and a treasure, and not something to be ignored. this gift is not of vanity, you didn't love me for my vanity, you loved me for my heart, and for the life you lived with me.

as much as letting go hurts...
there is much healing in the process,
there is much joy in the stitches
and though, there will always be a scar, and a mark on my heart for you,
I am now whole, because you knew how to love me back to life! Thank You! and I will never be the same!!

You...

Though it hurts to say goodbye, I know its for the best. I'll carry your heart in mine, until it falls out of my chest. Ill never breathe without the thought of your face upon my mind, ill never dream without the fleeting memory of your voice remembered kind. I will never be alone, you'll be with me where I go. You'll be always in my song, be my laughter be my guide. There will never be a day I won't have you in my life. So though we can never be and my heart will always bleed ill know you are where you are and that is all I need. I need. I need....to say goodbye. Forever and good night.

The secret's in the telling

the past is truly a place
I live there everyday
tracing lines, re-playing steps
keeping me alive.

until the last resilient hope
is frozen deep inside my bones
and this broken fate has claimed me
and my memories for it's own.
Your name is pounding through my veins
Can't you hear how it is sung?
and I can taste you in my mouth
before the words escape my lungs
and I'll whisper only once....

There is a secret that we keep!