Leaves

Leaves, Leaves, Leaves,
Falling down all around.
Wind whips them off their trees
and they whirl through the air
not knowing whrere they'll land.
Sometimes these leaves remind me of my heart.
I used to know the feeling.

I used to feel the breeze, i used to let it move me.

leaves, leaves, leaves
falling down all around.
Vibrant colors full of life,
each leaf its own music,
each raindrop its delight.
Joy fills these leaves.


I know these leaves are like my heart.

I used to be vibrant and full of life.

I used to be my own muse. I used to have joy.


So...just like these leaves who know how to sing their own songs.
who know how to be beautiful just as they are,
I know I am what they are.


Instead of becoming what was, I will love what is.

leaves, leaves, leaves
falling down all around.
the wind dances with them,
the branch says, "Goodbye."
The old was good, but now is gone,
making room for more beautiful leaves to come

The world in My persepective

The sadness of the world -
it haunts me
like an unrelenting dream.
The deapth of people's souls so
wreaked, so rotten, so sold.
People devoured by judgement,
swept away by desire,
rottened by pleasure.

What is this place?
what runs our hearts?
What evil lurks in the catacombs of our beings?

Then, I look at my children,
I see their innocent faces,
the wonder in thier eyes.
Then I see the world they live in.
So dark, so putrid, so frail.
The majetic and the grand,
the beautiful things,
are clogged by lies and cheating and greed.

I wish that we could all be like the children,
so free of evil,
doubt
lust
pride
judgment
fear...
I wish we could all be like these faces I see
full of life,
if only they knew this world like I do
If only they knew...
i'mm scared to death!

Thankfully, there's hope in my heart, breath in my lungs, and freedom in my dreams. Thankfully, I know the way out!

I love you, My Child

I love you, my child
There is nothing that you can do
that can separate me away from you

You are here always,
within my strong and loving embrace
You are protected
You are loved.

I delight in you,
and see my own eyes upon your eyes
I take away your fears
I take away your tears
from now on you are safe
and you are where you’ve always longed to be.


Let the people who judged you
see how I cherish you now,
Let those who condemn you
see how close you are to me.

You are never outside of my love,
never an outcast
never a failure
never so far away
 
You need not do anything
to please me,
for I am already pleased
that you trust me
to guide you in everything
you wanted to do

You are beautiful
you are whole
you are healed
you are my beloved
you can rest upon my strong shoulders,
and trust that you won’t ever slip away
,For it is I
who is holding on firmly to you.

Prodigal Daughter

I thought the grass would be greener,
I thought the thrill would be worth it.
I thought the way I feel, would make it all okay.
I thought, too much.

I've pretended too long,
I've longed too much
I've given up sanity,
I craved the touch

from the first moment I was hooked
till the last night I felt like sin
death creeped in my veins and swallowed me up
thats what it feels like when you give up

I kept telling myself it'd be worth it
and it wasn't even fun
should have stopped before I was addicted
It was too much

now there is pain I cant contain
now there is guilt I cannot erase
now there is hurt that is all on me
now there is life that is in the balance
now there is nothing left to give.


---where do the broken go when they are shattered? where do the shameful go when they are afraid? where do the restless go when they are weak?To the arms of the King, who heals, and saves, and calls us from the grave, who sets the wicked free, and calms the seas. Who has a heart big enough for me!--

Now I am an empty vessel
ready to be filled
longing for hope
I know it wont be easy to rebuild
but slowly I will learn the path
the road, the way...back home